Kenji
July 26, 2025 at 7:31:47 PM
Look soap im trying to stay as unbias as i can here becausd i care about both of you and want you to get past this. I need you to understand that saff is hurting and so are you, he isnt trying to guilt trip or trying to blame you, hes upset and isnt wrong for feeling the way he does, you know itd hurt you too if the roles where reversed and he did that to you then youd feel just as hurt and you know that!. I am not going to lie here some of your actions infuriated me but i knew you where hurting as well but there r alot of ways to not go about it, for instance before this youd vent to pris alot without much warning and i can say it might not be your fault i lf he didnt say anything but please understand how scary it feels to others trying to act around you because of how it feels like walking on eggshells, another thing is id appreciate if your friends would kindly stop bothering me for it is becoming annoying and i really dont want to blow up on them or you over it. You all have communication issues and there isnt denying how any of you get when youre upset. I dont think some are trying to make you a villain but you need to realize your general actions are horrible and are what people will convey you by, their experience with you. And only you can change that image, no one else.
Replied on: July 27, 2025 at 2:53:01 AM
I understand that saff is hurting, everyone’s hurting and im trying so hard to fix that because i never want to hurt anyone like that again. Im aware that if someone did what i did to elliot id be upset but yet again im more hurt because no one is acknowledging i was going through shit before and this time i told people my emotions, i felt like i was getting better because i really was trying to be open about my emotions as much as i could bring myself to. im not sure what friends your talking about but i dont feel comfortable with random people such as whoever commented on my ata joining in on whatever this is rn. Also im trying to see behind words to try and realize something liek “oh no they aren’t just saying this out of pure malice” but i feel like they are, no apologies no admitting their wrongs in any way shape or form, no it’s just using words to guilt trip, hurt, and shame, yet again im hyper aware on how bad of a person I am already and having multiple people I cared abt coming at me in spite of making me feel remorse or regret is working, i feel awful and im trying to change. I’ve recognized my actions are horrible but i need this to go both ways (not talking bout you).
anyways thanks for staying mutual on this, even if it is slightly hard to believe but I appreciate it.